Before you met me i was a fairy princess
I caught frogs and called them prince
And made myself a queen
Before you knew me i traveled 'round the world
I slept in castles and fell in love
Because i was taught to dream
I found mayonnaise bottles and poked holes on top
To capture tinkerbell
They were just fireflies to the untrained eye
But i could always tell

I believe in fairytales and dreamers dreams like bed sheet sails
And i believe in peter pan and miracles
And anything i can to get by
And fireflies

Before i grew up i saw you on a cloud
I could bless myself in your name and pat you on your wings
Before i grew up i heard you whisper so loud
"life is hard, and so is love, child, believe in all these things"
I found mayonnaise bottles and poked holes on top
To capture tinkerbell
And they were just fireflies to the untrained eye
But i could always tell

Before you met me i was a fairy princess
I caught frogs and called them prince
And made myself a queen
Before you knew me i traveled 'round the world
And i slept in castles and fell in love
Because i was taught to dream

Ok, so I haven't updated in a while, but not so much has really changed. Wedding plans are coming along; we've finally rented a reception place. However, they quoted me wrong on the price, and then I didn't know what to think, and I totally mis-interpreted everything my mom and my fiance said and pretty soon I was ready to cry. Strange how stress can mess with your mind.

I've realized that my fiance is probably the smartest man on earth!  I think back at all the times we've talked about something (me working too much) and his adamant argument for me to drop some jobs. I should have not put up the argument, and simply smiled and said yes dear!  I've got so much on my plate right now. I just wan to apoligze to everyone who has gotten the blank stare while they were talking to me. It's not because I didn't want to listen, it was because I couldn't focus on what was being said!!  My short-term memory is fried, I swear!  Anyway, he's the smartest guy I know!

I'm once again in the battle to save money, at least it feels that way. I was doing really good, and then all of a sudden, I feel like I'm back where I started!  It's so strange...I can't figure out where all of it went!  Oh well, I'll find it somewhere. Life is just expensive and I'm beginning to realize that.

We've got our Practicum and Communities classes figured out. I can't believe that I'm almost ready to graduate!!

It's Wednesday, and I'm exhausted. In some respects, I want to be so done with school. In other respects, I'm not ready to grow up. Ever have that feeling?  Anyway, I do. I think it usually hits me when I'm completely overwelmed with things to do, or think about. I'm trying to save $$$$ but it's not going as well as I had hoped. Guess that is what happens when you are a full-time student. It'll come.  I've just gotta not focus on it, otherwise I'll get all panicky and pretty soon I'll be a basket-case. I've been told that I work too much. The more I think about it, the more I realize that it's probably true. And it scares me half-to death that I don't know how to relax. We're (Tom and I) going to a baseball game this weekend with his family. My first reaction was "what work am I going to miss."  That should NOT be my reaction. My reaction should be along the lines of "yay, I get to spend time with the man I love and the family I'm joining." So now I have to work on retraining myself to have fun.  I pray it goes well.

Started my internship this week. It's fun, but a lot of work. I'm interning at Pine Rest ADD Institution. I feel a little out of place as most of the interns are Psych majors. I'm the only Social Work. :-S  But the responsibilities are interesting. I test clients for symptoms of ADD, ADHD, ODD, and several other behavioral things. So far I've seen a wide range of individuals. The oldest has been 50, the youngest was 6. I took the test early Monday morning; I have symptoms of ADHD. My first thought was "No Way! Everyone knows I'm just OCD!! "  But we'll see how it keeps going. Today I had interaction with a 8 year old client, and it was a little overwelming. I'm nervous to go on my own.

Class load is "alright". I'm still looking for the motivation to work on it. I've gotten quite a bit done, just hoping to stick with it now!  I suppose I should get back to doing some of that homework....

Well, the semester is officially underway, and other than a few bumps I think I'm ready. After some confusion, I got my internship hours figured out. I was afraid I would be short, but I'm allowed to count 25 hours from training for Eastwood, which is a load. I'm excited to start out that much ahead. Everyone is at the Convocation right now, so the 3rd floor is VERY quiet. Oh well, I guess thats a good thing, considering how busy it's going to get. I think this week was a really easy week, I only had one class. Next week my night classes start, and my internship. I'm really excited to start that. Having my foot in 2 doors at Pine Rest holds a little encouragement for a job after I graduate and a little security for the life Tom and I will be starting. It's all good.

Everyone is headed off to the All-Campus Retreat tonight. I'm bummed that I can't go. Sucky work schedule. Oh well, someone's gotta do it. I hope people don't have too much fun without me. I hate being left out.

Well, time to do something constructive. Have a great weekend!

I went home Sunday to spend some much needed time with my family. Oh my goodness, I cannot even begin to explain how much fun I had!  It was the first time in almost 2 months that all 4 of us kids were home...together...for supper. I miss those times (I also miss having my mom to cook for me, I hate making meals). On Sunday night, Mom, Han, and I went for a 4-wheeler ride, out through the back woods and through the "tunnel." We laughed so hard!  Han is halarious. We stopped by a small pond, and found atleast 20 monarch callipiters (as Rebecca would call them) and took them home and put them in a fish tank. As of 6 this morning (When I left home) 9 of them had made cocoons. Just another one of God's amazing wonders. Us girls went star gazing Sunday night too. I love watching the stars. It was all fun until a deer ran up to us and started grunting, and then took off again. Then the cats went crazy, Han and I flipped out and raced back to the house. It gets really dark at 1am.  All Mom could do was laugh at us.   On Monday, Han and I went shopping, so she could help me pick out clothes.  My wardrobe will never be the same. Then I went to Camp Michell in Cadillac and hung out with San, Isaac, Andrew, Rebecca, and Ezra. That was so much fun. We went to the lake, and went swimming. On Tuesday I went to Traverse with my mom, because she had a dr's appointment. She bought me some more clothes and a pair of shoes (I was desperately in need of wearable clothing). Adam went with us and he makes me laugh. We went back to the campground to give San my rollerblades because all her kids have some and she doesn't. Then we went home and had supper. Dad went horse riding with me, which was a trip. I had to fight Eddie the entire time. She wanted to run and I'm not a big fan of her style of running which is as fast and as far as she can, until she trips and I feel like I'm going to fly into the ground. The last thing I need is my pelvis crushed. Then I went home, and went to bed. I had to head to GR today at 6:30 because I had to be at work at 8. Yeah, I was a little late. I've also realized I shouldn't drive a lone that early in the morning; I almost fell asleep a couple of times. Not safe. Good thing I don't do it all the time.

I guess I should get to work, I have a lot of stuff to get done.